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[02 May 2005|09:33am]
very very bored in photography but came to the tech lab with amber got nothing to work on ahhh what to do what to do! hmmm any ideas? lol
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[20 Apr 2005|08:43pm]
[ mood | happy ]

lalala very bored but i feel great hmm i dont know why in a little while im actually going to organize all the loose papers in my backpack and put them inthe notebooks lol ive neededto do that for months i still got papers in their from the beginning of the year. Im happy i now have a wireless internetconnection for my labtop i wanted to get aol for it but my accounts going to be shutoff tonight so there is really no point my dad needs to pay the fucking bill right nowim watching americas next top model i think im going to try and make a new layout for this journal this ones starting to get old dont know what i want to do it of yet oh im happy the lowest gared i got for the 3rd quarter was a c sure most of the grades were cs butim very happy and for 4th quarter i want to try and get honor role so thats one of the reasons i want to organize everything itll make things alot easier ahh i hate uncontrollable sneezing fits! lol everythings seems to be going good right now except for a little drama with diana but im going to try and fix that friday hopefully

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[29 Mar 2005|12:06pm]
mexico was great I had alot of fun yeah some of the tours were extremely boring but the nights were great i dont think ive ever drank that much in my life. The worst part of the trip was being arrested and taken in a cop car to an empty building where they searched me n eddie repeatedly and kept asking us for drugs but we didnt have any it was really scary i cried and they took my money cuz for some reason we had a 150 dollar fine but all i had was 50 dollars yeah that also sucked becausew i was suppossed to buy liquor for friends that night and i was gonna buy a smalll bottle of absynth to bring home dammit oh well hmm i became pretty close friends with ediie it was great and i mad a new friend who i had to room with while i was there and i met a few guys who wanted to take advantage of a drunk girl but eddie was there and he watched out for me hes great i love him john was suppossed to meet me at the airport but hew couldnt cuz he had to be in early so he could wake at 3 am monday and i didnt get in till 8 pm sunday but its okay cuz he came to visit me yesturday both him and gary it was fun they took me to get pizza lol they said i wasnt ever aloud to leave them again they were so bored it was kinda of funny hmm im in school right now and there gonna realize im not doing work soon so i got to go
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[08 Mar 2005|12:38pm]
wow longtime no update lol been pretty busy and havent been online much unless it was for school work. things have been going pretty good i leave for mexico on the 17th so thatll be cool i guess even though i kind of dont wanna go anymore cuz i dont know anybody on the trip but oh well its to late to back out now considering i cant get my money back. I present my senior project next wednesday so im like stressing out now ugh i hate this but ill probably pass i hope lol hmm i was suppossed to go to a car show with john on staurday but things fell through oh well not sure what im doing this weekend amber might be hanging out with us at the garege for part of it both john and gary want to start working on their projects john wants to get his bus on the road and gary wants to get the 69 going so yeah hmm geez i never have anything to write anyhere but i promise i will start updateing more lol
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[06 Jan 2005|08:48pm]
R.I.P Jimmy I miss youCollapse )
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[03 Jan 2005|11:12pm]
vacation was fun but now im tired of being around my family and i wanna go back to the warm weather lol ahhhh
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[03 Jan 2005|11:09pm]
hehe im a little bit of evrythingCollapse )
1wishes came true Make A Wish

[07 Dec 2004|08:02pm]
i want all my old friends back but its not for lack of trying on my part no1 ever has time for me anymore maybe i should just stop whining
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[22 Nov 2004|03:45pm]
were back together we almost broke up but he realized how stupid he was being he admitted he slept with another girl while we were on the break and it hurts to know that but im happy he told me and theres not really a whole lot i could say because we were on a break but he still keeps apoligizing for it
2wishes came trues Make A Wish

[19 Nov 2004|03:59pm]
i find out whats going on between me n john tomorrow i hope we stay together i know he really doesnt want to completely break up ill fill you in on what happens monday or sunday night
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[08 Nov 2004|10:49pm]
my life sucks i want things to go back to normal but they never will the breaks back on this time its for another 2 weeks i wish he would make uo his damn mind cuz this just really hurts to damn much im tired of not having a life rigt now cuz when im alone all im doing is crying cuz i get stuck thinking about him ugh why does this have to happen to me? i actually thought he loved me he even told me i did on friday when he spent the night but i guess that was just so he could get some before we started the break again im pissed about this situation, im pissed at myself im so stupid ahhh ive just never felt this way about anyone before and it scares me i wish there was just some way to make myself feel better and for the 2 weeks to be up now i really cant handle this for 2 weeks im dying inside someone please help me i feel lost
3wishes came trues Make A Wish

[03 Nov 2004|10:36pm]
thank you Sarah I love ya!

BtchnBby55: u weak as hell
CuteLilDevil014: huh
CuteLilDevil014: kristina tell you to say that?
BtchnBby55: no
CuteLilDevil014: well thanks alot ive done enough crying tonight and i dont need 2 friends of mine saying that
BtchnBby55: oh shit sorry....
BtchnBby55: i love u
CuteLilDevil014: w/e
BtchnBby55: dont cry i didnt kno she said to just say it
CuteLilDevil014: i figured she told you to say it
BtchnBby55: i cried alot today to
BtchnBby55: i thought it was an inside joke or something i sorry
CuteLilDevil014: no she told me that right before you to just be hurtful
BtchnBby55: i sorry
CuteLilDevil014: i told her that i made my boyfriend talk things throguh with me and now were no longer on a break
BtchnBby55: i made a BIG ASS dent in my school locker today cuz i was soo stressed out with everything and then just broke down
CuteLilDevil014: and she told me i was weak for it
CuteLilDevil014: i dont want to fight with krisina shes my best friend but that hurt im sorry if i dont know how to make myself happy
BtchnBby55: its ok thats bot being weak...
BtchnBby55: not*
CuteLilDevil014: well she thinks it is and that hurts
BtchnBby55: i understand....my best friend at school is pissed at me n i have no idea y...she got mad cuz i was lyin on top of travis i think, n kissed him.////no idea tho
CuteLilDevil014: oh
CuteLilDevil014: well shes pissed at me right now and i dont know what to tell her
BtchnBby55: dont worry aobut it
CuteLilDevil014: i know ive been through enough the last few days
CuteLilDevil014: ill deal with it another day
BtchnBby55: excattly thats wat happen to me....i beat the hell of of the locker then just broke down
CuteLilDevil014: yeah well you destruct other things when you hurt i tend to be self destructivebut i havent hirt myself badly i promised her i wouldnt
BtchnBby55: dont hurt urself kim
CuteLilDevil014: when i get ot be that upset it makes me feel better
CuteLilDevil014: sorry
CuteLilDevil014: but i havent actually scarred myself ina year
BtchnBby55: i kno...i member
CuteLilDevil014: yeah
BtchnBby55: i g2g moms bein a bitch
CuteLilDevil014: ok bye
1wishes came true Make A Wish

[03 Nov 2004|10:32pm]
ugh does she have to be hurtful ive done enoguh crying today ill deal with this another day

CuteLilDevil014: hey
Chubbee Bunnie09: hola.. are you feeling better today?
CuteLilDevil014: now i am lol i just made him talk things out with me i couldnt do the break thing
Chubbee Bunnie09: NOW what the hell did that solve?
CuteLilDevil014: lol were not on a break anymore
CuteLilDevil014: and i feel better
Chubbee Bunnie09: OK KIM!!
CuteLilDevil014: lol
CuteLilDevil014: he really didnt want to to talk it through but i wouldnt get off the phone till we did
Chubbee Bunnie09: YOUR WEAK AS HELL!!!
CuteLilDevil014: i know im sorry
Chubbee Bunnie09: dont be sorry to me.. im not weak!!
CuteLilDevil014: i cant be bymyself anymore i dont care if that makes me weak as long as im happy
Chubbee Bunnie09: whatever kim.. im not going to argue with you if you think the only way you can be you is with john... Your just turning into another krystal!!!
CuteLilDevil014: no i dont think thats the only way yo be me ok im just not happy without me but i can go on and be how i was
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[02 Nov 2004|10:06pm]
me n john are on a break im seriously falling apart someone help
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[01 Nov 2004|08:06pm]
ok i promised is make an entry today hmm homecomeing was really fun amber says she approves of john i said i would post pics but i never finished the role so they havent been developed yet some guy takeing pics for the yearbook kept takeing pics of me n john i swear he was following us around lol anyways sunday sucked me n john fought all morning and im scared im gonna lose him i keep getting the feeling that the only reason hes still with me is that he doesnt want to hurt me he says he loves me and hes not gonna break up with me but im just really scared he asked me just to leave him alone for a few days so he can sort things out cuz hes under alot of stress right now i understand but i cant stop crying i really dont know what to do and the one thing i know will help me feel better i promised id never do again ahh what am i suppossed to do when the one person ive always called to calm me down when im upset is the person thats makeing me this way??

*just tell me that you love me,
hold me in your arms, and let
me fall asleep, then when i awake
things wont seem so bad .
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[30 Oct 2004|12:46pm]
ive been really bad at updateing this thing but then again im not online that much anymore but anyways i got homecomeing tonight so arouund 2 my days gonna actually start getting busy i have to be at the school by 3:45 to sing the star spangled banner at the game then i have a 5 a clock hair appointment after that i have a 6:30 make up appointment then im meeting john here at 8 so we can eat dinner then go up to the school. Im wearing my dress from my sophmore year my mom syas it looks better on me now cuz ive thinned out some anyways im wearing the old dress so i can actually afford a prom dress when prom comes around. I was proud of my slef this week lol i actually particapated everyday for spirit week wootwoot go me lol not much else to sya nothings really been goin on i promise ill update this monday and let everyone know how homecomeing went and ill try and post pics
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[20 Oct 2004|07:58pm]
I want someone to take care of me when im sick im tired of takeing care of everyone else whether im sick or not
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[18 Oct 2004|09:24pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Jimmy (Duey) Baldwin
89- Oct 10th 2004
He will never Die alone
Juggalos will carry on
swing our hatchets if we must
each and every one of us

I love you Jimmy and I cant believe your gone ill never forget you I just want to go back to jerrys pizza and see you working back there again but its not going to happen I know you wouldnt want anyone to be sad but we cant help it you made an impact on everyone that knew you. You always knew what to do or say to make me smile even when i was sad

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[15 Sep 2004|09:00pm]
[ mood | blank ]

hmm need to upsate lol not a whole lots happened with my life today is the 3 month anniversary since jay died um Mike left voodoo blue so im gonna make a new layout soon i think im gonna make a tinkerbell layout lol anyways im in school now it kind of sucks but oh well this is my last year I saw jennifer last sunday it was fun she only live bout an hour away i thought it was alot farther. Im trying to start drivers ed next week that way i can start tai kwon doe classes afterwards i need to start them soon but for the next few weeks im gonna be trying to get in shape and i can count those hours for my senior project so it will be cool hmm ive been working on getting my 40 hours in so far ive only gotten like 2 lol cant think of anything else to say just thought i should give ya an update on whats going on

If tears could build a stairway,
and memories were a lane,
I would walk right up to heaven
to bring you home again.
No farewell words were spoken
no time to say goodbye
you were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.
My heart still aches in sadness
and secret tears still flow,
what it meant to lose you,
no one will ever know.

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[09 Sep 2004|11:12pm]
i miss you jay theres not a day that goes by that i dont think of you i dont understand why it had to be you and im trying to believe you are in a better place i really want to believe that your not completely gone and maybe you are watching over us
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